childhood crush

I recently found out that an elementary classmate of mine had a crush on me. It’s a real shocker! All those years I thought I was the ugly duckling of the class… hahaha who are you kidding! it’s not that important now. I don’t think of things like such. He is now a friend in my social site, we chat if we get the chance. Earlier this day he asked me how to get to as specific place, a company wherein he will have his interview the next day…well, since I’m in front of my PC I can Google the map in seconds. Gave him the instructions and even sent him the link. All of a sudden he asked me to meet up after the job interview and have dinner at my place. When I asked why, He replied “It’s important in life to be in contact/connection with old friends before moving on with life”. Gosh, who are you kidding!!!!! It’s such a lousy excuse.


The question is WHY?

A simple yet meaningful hug from her sister opened her mind to ask WHY? Why did she stopped expressing her true emotions physically to those she truly cherish? Why do she dislike showing her affection through hugging her love ones? Why can’t she hug in return? Why doesn’t she allow herself to receive hugs?

Another sister of hers told her that maybe it was because she don’t want to show vulnerability. She have this fancy belief that she needs to be strong if not physically she have to grow even stronger emotionally. Toughen up for the wrong reasons yet for her it’s reasonable enough. Such twisted way of thinking yet intriguing. She often defend her actions by her bitter past  but that won’t really justify it correctly. She has no right to punish herself  especially the people closest to her.

Does she really hate the feeling of being hugged? She often dodge hugs by saying it irritates her because she has a severe case of asthma when she was young. Then when she became an adult she would just shrugged and turn away if  a hug is on her way. Silly isn’t it? As a matter of fact she does love the feeling of hugging someone, but most of those people she hugged are either gone or have caused her psychological trauma. She doesn’t want the people around her now to leave another scar if she starts to open up and express her affection.

Do you think there is a deeper meaning to this? Do you think it’s better for her to start hugging those she treasure most? Well now is the time to show your affection, tell what’s on your mind? Share your comments and advises. She certainly needs them.

Help!!! What’s for dinner?

It’s such a dilemma for I am not that great of a cook nor brave enough to express my adventurous side to culinary arts. Well as a matter of fact I imagine things beyond reasons, preparing exquisite meals to feed my 3 kids and 2 sisters, but we all have our own meal preferences and allergies to consider.We only eat veggies, poultry, pasta and seafood.My sister has TMJ ( which makes it hard for her to chew.I also have to consider the budget and time of preparation.

So most of the time I cook what we are used to eating.That would result in pasta (pesto, tomato or mushroom sauce as long as there are ingredients in the cupboard). Chicken dishes in tomato sauce, sautéed veggies, fried or steamed or grilled fish. We even wrote down menu for the whole month but still it gives me a headache thinking of what to prepare. But sometimes circumstances would arise that would alter the course of our planned meals. Thus, the headache of mine, let me think of a menu that would suit todays events an my beloved customers  🙂

Thank God for the dilemma it still makes me think that we are fortunate to be thinking of what to eat. I know it’s such a nonsense but it’s quite fun to worry over this than stress myself on other problems way bigger than me (he he he). Enough of this…folks I gotta stop this blog first need to start cooking it will be dark soon…and my hungry audience awaits.

If you have any suggestions please do share it with me. Thank you in advance!